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well... donno y i did wrote this but i always had many things to say that i always find it difficult to open up here!!!

this might be only ma feeling

earlier i thot that wud be bcos i am not used to this place ..so i might be thinking all these..


this is about our class...
the way we behave in our class..
or can b commonly addressed 4 dis place..

yesterrday i happened to one of ma old class mates.. if i elaborate how good and deep is our frndship.. then these pple may change the meaning to smthing else.. she told me abt the college der.. its so fun going to class.. they all enjoy der cass... since its the last year they get togethr all saturday eveng in sme parks or go for sme movie.. they r all in grups... they started preparing der slams .... they just dont want to depart..
even der is fght n all stuff but she say pple come to pick her up frm home to college every morning..
sounded good to me but here pple may laugh ...

hmm
even in ma school life happnd to be the same..
but here... very sad to say...
but i smetime think its all a wrong choice of mine to get trapped here 4 four years Xept the hostel its nothing......

i just wanted to b free n open initially..in the 1st year.. but then i realised dat the attitude of mine shud needd to b changed because dat attitude is termed as KOZHI....here
it might b the wrong definition ...but i founded dat there is only 1 kind a relation with a girl it shud b either hi-bye frnd or girlfrnd..

well i wont blame dis place 4 these things..
then slowly i changed ... now i am a pakka keralite i started getting scared of high xposure ...
but event then .. i got few best frnds ...
but again its hard to maintain ..
i shud think about the community ,d pple, staff... n all chalo....

leave all these things let take our class now thats was d only place left wer sme interaction was possible..

but ...
now....nothing even wen hardly 6 months left 4 the course..
initially i thot it might be because we dont know each other...
but actually we pple dont want to now all are independent..matlabi..
self-centered

i am not blaming ny1 even i have bcame the same..
.
no unity at all its all in grups sme talk sme dont talk dont u think its shame dat we pple dont even know the full name of many class mates..
how many of us know the fullname of all class mates ...
xcept divya miss she might know dat.....
i thot we might change ...
but now ..
i left ma xpectation..

this sem begining i planned to change the seating arrangement... i thot....we thot of bringing the benches close...but.....
hmm
then wen we get ny free hour hardly pple try to know each other...
those who talk keep talkng ...t
hose who dont ...never ...
they might b happy with dat

last sem we had grup discussion ....
we forced pple to speak out ...
but no results...rather than some pple bunked the free hour too..

i am ...
just waiting to get this course finish ..
i wud be very unhappy with ma class...
if its the same we hardly enjoyed our class rooms...
iam glad dat now its fun in our section ..
we have our own jokes n jobs...(boys section) ...
n i am very happy with dat... but still there need to be sme changes..
i descided to write it ....
wen i class reshmi said dat she asked her father that she dont want to study further imagine wat he must have thot she complained dat no 1 in calss is acting nice to her they all call her ahankari n onmly we know that how simple were we when we teased her.
. but its very serious wen a person from outside look into it..
donno wat shud be changed ..how shud we change.. ma present feling is forced to change as..

i cant change ....
nothing is going to change....
its my last year... my last 6-7 months ...
i have to ny how finish this course n leave this place as soon as possible
can nyone help me out to make sme change????

i dont want ny1 to ask me about nything i felt ..
or nything about this change or abt mail in class..
i just said wat i felt.. note: very few pple are xceptions... -- ♪ sreejith ♪